"That moment when you realize all you've ever wanted was right
there across the room in your english class"
I saw this quote and it brought back memories of someone I don't
want to remember. He used to sit directly across from me in
English class and we would stare at each other all the time. I
thought he was going to be my future, that he was the one I truly
wanted. That is, until he used me, broke my heart, then
blackmailed me. I've moved on since then to the most perfect boy
ever. Or at least I thought I moved on. Every time I see that boy
from English, all the feelings come rushing back. I feel the need
to hug him, touch him, or just be near him. I guess I never
really had the time to fully deal with what happened with him
because to keep my mind off it, I jumped from one relationship to
another. I never dealt with it and now that I'm having lots of
time alone and I see him every day now, I'm being forced to face
it. I'm being forced to face him. I had it all planned out with
my current boyfriend who I absolutely know I want to be with
until that boy from English had to come along and try to talk to
me again (well, blackmail me). I was doing just fine with my
perfect, loving boyfriend while blocking him out of my mind. Why
is he coming back now? Why does it have to be him? Why are the
feelings coming back now?