Quotes added on Wednesday, September 12 2012

DAILY JOURNAL: day 3
Have you ever seen the movie "the Adjustment Bureau"? If not, basically the refernce I'm trying to make is that the movie is about a man who is in love with a girl, who he is not meant to be with. Fate is driving the two of them apart, but he keeps fighting. In the end he overpowers the bureau, his plan is changed, and his new fate is with her. My dilema is this, difference: doesn't look like I'll be winning this battle. fourth day I've tried getting into HIS class, no luck. HIS class is full, and the boy who was supposed to be transferring out today said he might not be. I can't do this. I can't be without HIM. This year might be my one shot to actually win him over and that class is the only thing standing between US, well technically its the boy who won't leave.. If god, or whoever is up there, is simpily not letting me be with him because I need to learn how to deal with being away from a loved one; then let me learn this lesson another time. I understand, I get whats its like to be without him, I can handle it when the time comes, promise. But please dont let that time be now. I cant focus on my school work because I keep trying to think of ways to be with him. Why are you keeping me from him, I just dont understand what ive done to deserve this cruelty. I dont need a reason to be angry with god.



CAUGHT HIS EYE 3 TIMES
*ill call him john*
 

FIRST TIME: Oh John, what a troublemaker this boy is. Maybe thats my problem, I fall for the bad boys because I want to be the one who digs deep enough and discover his bitter sweet passion. Anyway we had a class meeeting today. John sat in the way back, I couldn't see him, but I noticed him when he got introuble for taking to much. He was held after the meeting was dismissed to have a special chat with the principal about keeping his big as* mouth shut. I went to my friends locker after, and when I passed by the meeting room again, john was still in there. OKay I thought, He has shop class this period so if I walk really slow, eventually he'll have to pass me, or at the least I can turn around and see him. Almost to my locker in the main hallway and I can't hear any footseps behind me, so I turn around and there he is. Us two, the only two in the hallway. That shaggy blonde hair, those big brown eyes. I had forgetten how truly exciting it was to see him. I stopped at my locker and he passed by. I didn't say a word.. I should have shouted his name, I should have done a fake cough anything. Instead I watched him go.

SECOND TIME: During 8th period, I had algebra, most dreaded class, John had physics. &why do i know that? Easy, my best friend has that class with him and rubs it in.. Anway john is just about late to every class. Kid has swag.. swag is not a fast paced action. And when just swagging down the hallway with  buds, its about 2xs as slow as it would take to walk alone. Anyway I also took my time going to algebra class because I was busy talking to John's algebra teacher about how I HAVE to be in that class and how that boy HAS to transfer out.  John's physics class is right down the hall so any minute now he should be strolling down the hall. Instead, he started walking towards me.. his physics class is the other way. He walked towards me halfway up the hall, then spontaneously turned around.. okay john.. I watched him walk towards his class, back turned towards me, as i talked to his algebra teacher when he did IT. the classic turn around. He turned and took a quick glance to see if I was still there. Our eyes locked and it was perfect.

THIRD TIME: After john got out of physcics, and I out of algebra, I walked behind him through practically the whole school. I wanted to see what class he had next but I lost him when I realized I had to stop at my locker. I met up with my friend and we started walking again, I tried to look for John but I lost him. Out of the corner of my eye, yupp you guessed it, I see that golden blonde hair. I look to my left and see him standing at his locker with about 4 of his other friends. Not even knwoing I was staring, he looksover at me. My god those eyes. THAT FACE. Never have i seen someone so beautiful. Never have I been so in love. I break the gaze after about 2 mississippi seconds, it was like looking into the sun. That boy shinned. I keep walking down the hallway past him when I pull the classic turn around also: all of his friends were talking around him, but he, he was still watching me walk away. Although you can catergoize this as one of worst days so far, he made it all worth while even if i only saw him for a few seconds.