Quotes added on Sunday, October 28 2012
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His smile makes my heart stop
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Me working with a group in class: That's
actually a pretty sh.itty idea, but thanks for trying
Girlyish 3/11 Boyish
6/10 Nerdy
5/9 Emo
7/9 Childish
3/9
Girlyish
[x] I like at least one shade of pink
[x] I don't like being messy
[] My belongings are organized
[] I don't like rock music
[] like wearing accessories
[] Bright colors amaze me
[] I hate black
[] I go to the salon once a week
[] I comb my hair almost all the time
[x] I bring my phone with me everywhere
[] I like wearing tight pants
Boyish
[x] I like wearing baggy pants
[x] I play video games
[] I like Akon
[x] I like wearing jackets with hoods
[] I'm too lazy to do chores
[x] I don't like shopping unless it's for me
[] I would go bungee jumping
[] I like being sweaty
[x] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes
[x] I wear perfume/cologne
Nerdy
[x] I always carry a pen in my purse or pocket
[] I enjoy studying
[] I wear glasses
[x] I'm a straight-A student
[x] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.
[] I like my shirt tucked in
[] One of my favorite subject is science
[x] I like reading mystery books
[x] My assignments are passed up on time
Emo
[x] I am crazy about the color black
[x] I sit at the corner
[x] One side of my hair is covering one of my eyes.
[x] I like heavy metal/rock music
[x] I have a lot of problems in my life
[] I don't talk much
[x] I don't have that many friends
[] I barely have fun
[x] I barely go out with my Parents or friends
Childish
[] I love to stare at the ceiling for ten minutes
[] I sleep with a stuff toy/pillow.
[x] I watch cartoons
[x] I love to invent words only i understand
[] I sleep with a night light
[] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.
[] I'm scared of roller coasters
[x] I like being with my family relatives
[] I take bubble baths
Girlyish
[x] I like at least one shade of pink
[x] I don't like being messy
[] My belongings are organized
[] I don't like rock music
[] like wearing accessories
[] Bright colors amaze me
[] I hate black
[] I go to the salon once a week
[] I comb my hair almost all the time
[x] I bring my phone with me everywhere
[] I like wearing tight pants
Boyish
[x] I like wearing baggy pants
[x] I play video games
[] I like Akon
[x] I like wearing jackets with hoods
[] I'm too lazy to do chores
[x] I don't like shopping unless it's for me
[] I would go bungee jumping
[] I like being sweaty
[x] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes
[x] I wear perfume/cologne
Nerdy
[x] I always carry a pen in my purse or pocket
[] I enjoy studying
[] I wear glasses
[x] I'm a straight-A student
[x] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.
[] I like my shirt tucked in
[] One of my favorite subject is science
[x] I like reading mystery books
[x] My assignments are passed up on time
Emo
[x] I am crazy about the color black
[x] I sit at the corner
[x] One side of my hair is covering one of my eyes.
[x] I like heavy metal/rock music
[x] I have a lot of problems in my life
[] I don't talk much
[x] I don't have that many friends
[] I barely have fun
[x] I barely go out with my Parents or friends
Childish
[] I love to stare at the ceiling for ten minutes
[] I sleep with a stuff toy/pillow.
[x] I watch cartoons
[x] I love to invent words only i understand
[] I sleep with a night light
[] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.
[] I'm scared of roller coasters
[x] I like being with my family relatives
[] I take bubble baths
I lay
in bed, it's pitch black in my room. I feel it. A chill
runs down my back, my blood runs cold. His hands are upon me,
burning my skin. My voice, it won't work. I try to open
my mouth, but it is as if my lips are glued shut. I feel his
hands push upon my back, pain shooting through me. I am
paralyzed. I want to run, I want to hide, but I remain there.
I feel his fingers trace my skin, I feel him push harder
against my back. I can't do anything about it.
I gasp, shooting up in my bed. My heart, erratic; my breath, coming out in gasps. The night is quiet—calm. I feel tears swell within my eyes; I can still feel his hands upon me—to this day—I remember everything so vividly. As if it was a memory. But, no, it was a creation of my own mind; my mind, attacking me once again.
I gasp, shooting up in my bed. My heart, erratic; my breath, coming out in gasps. The night is quiet—calm. I feel tears swell within my eyes; I can still feel his hands upon me—to this day—I remember everything so vividly. As if it was a memory. But, no, it was a creation of my own mind; my mind, attacking me once again.
I wish you were here, I wish you were holding me. I wish you took away the pain, I wish you too away the nightmares. You're the only thing that I have to hold onto, you're the only thing that makes me believe I could ever get better—as if I could ever beat this. You're my voice of reason, you're my voice of hope; you're my light, my guiding angel.
But, alas, you're with her. Holding her in your arms, looking into her eyes, chasing away her nightmares. I suppose I don't blame you, I'm not much of anything—if that at the very least. She's stable, she's sane, she's good for you. Me, I'm toxic, I would posion you, I would ruin you. Like I've ruined myself. At least you're still putting up with me, I suppose. At least you haven't abandon me, yet.
So, I sit there, just like every other night. Replying my lastest destruction of my mind—my latest nightmare—over and over again within my head. Memorizing every detail, etching it within my brain. Wishing—aching—for you to be here with me, holding me in your arms, keeping the demons at bay. But you're not. And you never will be.
