You taught and turned me into what I am with fire and steel and hurt and hate
Because that's what happened to you.
But I will teach and turn with love and kindness.
I will kill your spiral.
I'M SITTING HERE LISTENING TO YOUR
FAVORITE
SONG.
THINKING
OF YOU
& THE COLOR OF YOUR
EYES & THE
SMELL OF YOUR HAIR & WONDERING I F
Y
O U T H
I N K
A
B O U
T
M E
,
T
O O .
I'm kind of
upset about what this world is coming
to.
So, I take the bus...
Yes, the bus, even though my sister drives to school everyday.
And there's these 5 kids, about kindergardeners.
They all sit together in the first two seats.
Every once in awhile, there will be another little boy who gets on
towards the end of the ride. The 5 other boys never let this little boy sit with
them.
They say he's stupid, and too small. Today, I was sitting in the seat
right next to them.
The little boy sat in my seat with me after they said he
couldn't sit in the seat because he wasn't "cool"
enough.
The boy started crying, and you know what I
said to him? You're the coolest boy I've ever
met. You can sit with me whenever you
want!
The other little boys looked at me and the boy in shock, and if
they're mean to him next time he is on the bus, I will yell at
them all.
(Sorry about the rant type thing, I
just got really upset over this.)
The Man Who Cant Be Moved (a Niall Horan love story PART
2)
Chptr
36: Little Things
Niall POV:I
was so happy. Alyssa was back. I had missed her so much. I knew
that one day shed come back. I was so happy to be able to hold her
in my arms again. To kiss her and hug her again. To see her
beautiful face again. After she said shed be mine again i lifted
her up to kiss her. Nothing in the whole world could make me
unhappy. I took her hand and we went for a long walk around town.
We didnt talk much, she just clung to my side and i held her close
as we strolled in summer breeze. I spent the whole walk thinking. I
could tell she was probably just thinking too. I thought about how
much i had missed her. What i had missed the most. As i looked down
at her, i realized all those little things i had missed. There were
all these small things that i loved about her that i didnt notice
until she was gone. How when we held hands her thumb always rested
on top of mine. Sometimes gripping just below my wrist and other
times resting in the little dip between my thumb and index finger.
The fact that her hair was always parted to the right making it
look all the more fluffy. When she always ran her fingers backwards
then forwards fluffing my hair and then it would be messy. How her
left eye closed the tiniest bit more than her right when she
smiled. Just like me, shed rest her head on my shoulder when we
hugged. Shed blink an abnormal amount of times when she was
confused. How shed always bite her lip when deciding what she
wanted to eat. I liked when we slept that shed always slip her arm
behind my pillow making an unusual bump under my head. And how shed
always scrunch up her nose right before shed yawn. When she made a
sad face her right eye brow would go down and the left would go up
and id always give in. How everytime she laughed shed tilt her head
back and it always sounded a bit different than the time before. I
loved how shed go on and on for hours about one small thing, not
stopping until you were convinced. How shed nod whenever she agreed
with what you were saying as you talked. She could always hear you
say her name from a mile away. When she immitated you shed use a
new funny accent each time. The way shed always lip sync the song
she was listening to, no matter where she was. The way she thought
everything was funny; her laugh. When her eyes twinkled at night.
They way her arms felt around me and how her lips felt against
mine. How her hands fit perfectly in mine. The way she said my name
and "i love you." i loved all those little things and i
would never let them go. I looked down at her and noticed that she
was looking back at me. "nialler." she said stopping
abruptly. "hmm?" i smiled and pushed a lose strand of her
hair behind her ear. "why do you have to be so amazing?"
she asked. I laughed and blushed but her face stayed serious like
it was a legitiment question. "niall, i left you. I didnt
believe you and i left. How can you still love me after that?"
she added, her eyes searching mine for a reason. "alyssa, i
would never stop loving you. I told you. I knew that if you loved
me too then youd come back. And you did. I admit that i was hurt
when you left but it doesnt matter now." i answered feeling
the wind pick up. "it doesnt matter because your back." i
said pulling her into my arms again. I felt her sob into my
shoulder. "hey shhh." i said trying to calm her down. I
rubbed her back and she just held onto me tighter. "alyssa
please stop. You know i hate it when you cry." i said, my
voice cracking. Seeing her cry just made me tear up as well. She
pulled away and sniffled, but too late. I sniffled along with her.
"niall dont you cry either. Were in the middle of town!"
she said, reaching up to fluff my hair. I shook my head. "i
dont care." i laughed and leaned down to kiss her again. She
smiled, then pulled away to say, "you know why i came back
niall?" i narrowed my eyes and then she finished. "well
first of all, liam sent me a letter that you never sent to
me." she raised her eyebrows. I took a deep breath; a bit
shocked. "what? He found that?" "yeah and it all
reminded me of what you had said a while ago. That day at the
beach. That youd love me until the day that i--" "count
all the stars in the sky." i said with her. "and i
realized how much this was hurting you and honestly hurting the
both of us. And i went straight back to the tree. Im sorry niall. I
shouldve believed you in the first place and.." there it was
again. How shed go on and on for hours until i was convinced. I
laughed and she stopped talking suddenly. "niall! Why are you
laughing?" she exclaimed, giggling herself. "Because i
love how you do that!" i said. "do what?" she
blinked twice. "talk and talk forever. And that too! You blink
a lot when youre confused." i laughed. "i still dont
understand!" "i missed that alyssa. I missed every little
detail about you." she blushed, looking at the ground.
"and right now i dont care that you left. I dont care that i
cried and sat under that tree for like 15 days. All i care about is
that your back. That all those little things are back." i
wrapped my arms around her waist. "and it wouldnt be the same
without anyone of them. they make you even more beautiful." i
whispered. She blushed and i kissed her forehead. "i
wish." i heard her whisper, trying not to be heard.
"alyssa dont say that!" i said frustratedly. "I hate
when you put yourself down like that! you need to know how
beautiful you are." she sighed and ignorned it. "cmon.
Lets go home. Im tired. I didnt sleep at all on the plane."
she replied taking my hand. I shook my head "alyssa, love.
look at me. I dont know how many times i can say it for you
understand that i love you and you are so beautiful." "I
love you too niall..." she said shyly looking down. "can
we go?" she whispered so that it was barely audible. i sighed
"sure. Cmon." With that we headed back to the park. once
there, she scrunched her nose and yawned. "god im tired."
I smirked and picked her up bridal style. She shrieked then
giggled. "Niall! Put me dowwnnn!" "Nope." I
winked. She playfully hit my shoulder but made no more protests as
we set off. She tightened her grip around my shoulders and i
adjusted her so she wasnt falling so much. After about 5 minutes,
we made it back to my house and ran up the stairs; so tired that we
jumped into my bed, not even bothering to change into pajamas. I
watched as she pulled my duvet under her chin and yawned again. I
smiled and ran my fingers through her hair. "Go to sleep love.
We have all of tomorrow to do anything you want." i schooched
closer and wrapped my arms tight around her in hopes that she
wouldnt leave again. "i love you niall." i heard her
whisper groggily. "i love you too princess. See you in the
morning" i said and started humming my song Little Things. I
could tell she had fallen asleep by the change in her breathing.
You could always tell when alyssas asleep by her breathing. It
would go from slightly fast to very calm and slow, but it was
always loud. Thats just another one of the little things i love
about her.
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here! ~alyssa