When
your parents let you skip school cause of a tropical storm you are
problably gonna be the happiest person in the world unless you are
my sister who is upset she is missing cheerleading.
I'm tired.
I'm tired of being the ugly friend, the
fat friend. I'm tired of being scared. Scared to
be
alone with myself because I'm scared of what I'll
do. I'm tired of not being able to look in the
mirror because I am absolutley disguisted with
my appearance. I'm tired of being alone. I'm
tired of pushing all my feelings deep down
because I know nobody will understand. I'm
tired of pretending I'm happy, but completley
breaking down when I'm alone. I know nothing
will ever change because I'm too timid to even
try to change it. I'm tired of always being the
first one to start the conversation even simply
with my best friend. I'm tired of everything. I'm
tired of life and the mistakes I've made. I'm
tired. Just,
tired.
I'm sorry Something happened to me. Something
bad. Something so unfair that it broke me forever.
And it makes me sad that I can't share it with
you. You would judge me if I did. You would
look at me in a different way. It kills me
I can't let anybody find out about my past. Not even you, my
love.