The Letter. THE CHANGE.
After I walked out of the room I went and sat in one of the
chairs in the hallway. I didn't mind being alone, it gave me
time to think. Which was something I needed to do.
Seeing Tessa and Milo only made the
fact that Niall cheated on me that much realer. I mean I knew he
had but part of me always hoped that maybe this was just one
giant dream. That part was gone now. Another thing seeing them
did was reopen the closing wound.
Now that I know what Tessa looks
like I feel a million times worse. Even though she looked tired
and worn down you could tell at one time she was gorgeous. She
was tall and thin, but not grossly. She had her long blonde hair,
and though her face was long she had great facial features. Next
to her I feel so... plain.
I put my head in my hands. When was
this nightmare going to end? Never, the back of my mind reminded
me. Niall has a son now, which is going to be a constant reminder
of what happened. I smiled, now a happy smile, but a sad smile.
The smile you make when you know life has once again defeated
you, gotten the best of you.
I thought of the promise I made my
self on the drive over: not to get attached to Milo, not to get
close to him. At the time it seemed like it was going to be easy
enough, but after seeing him, and seeing how much he looked like
Niall... it was going to be hard. And that started the internal
He doesn't deserve to be
punished for Niall's mistake.
But he will always remind you of
how Niall hurt you.
He is innocent, was that not
obvious when you held him?
But he will bring you nothing but
misery and pain.
I shook my head, trying to clear my
mind. I sat there for a while longer, I don't really know how
long I was out in the hall, it was kind of a blur. But eventually
Niall walked out of the door. I looked up, and saw his face, so
full of concern and worry and sorrow, and that caused me to be
concerned. He turned and looked at me; I could tell he was deep
in thought about something by the way his eyes were clouded
"Is everything okay?" I
finally asked. My words broke him out of his trance.
"No," was all he said. We
walked out of the hospital and to his car in silence. I started
to become really worried about what happened while I was in the
hallway. We got to the car and climbed in.
Niall didn't start the car
though, he just sat there and stared at the steering wheel before
resting his head in his hands. After a moment I heard him mumble
something but I couldn't make out the words.
"What?" I asked
"She's dying, Tessa is
dying." he began to tell me what happened. Everything to
what is wrong with Tessa to promising to give Milo a good life to
having to bring him home that week. I couldn't believe what I
was hearing, I couldn't believe any of this was really
happening. Niall didn't cry the entire time he was talking,
but once he finished he started crying
"Niall its going to be okay,
its all going to work out," I tried to comfort him but I
didn't really believe what I was saying.
"No its not. I always thought
Milo was at least going to have a mother to look after him, I
always thought Tessa was going to be there to take care of him.
Especially while I was gone on tour. I mean I always planned on
taking care of him and being apart of his life but now... now
I'm going to be the only parental figure in his life." I
didn't know what to say. So I didn't anything for a
second. I just sat there, still trying to absorb everything that
"I was already terrified I was
going to screw up being a father, but now... now its
different," Niall confessed.
This time I knew exactly what to
say. "Niall look at me. Look at me." His head slowly
turned. His cheeks were red and wet from all of his tears.
"You are going to make a great dad. I have always known that
you would, but after today watching you take care of him there is
no doubt in my mind that you are going to be a great
A small weak smile crossed
Niall's face. We sat there in the car for a few more minutes
talking, mostly about how Niall is going to have to bring Milo
home and everything we were going to have to do. Even though I
still didn't want to get close to Milo I knew I was going to
have to help Niall through this. We were talking about different
ideas on what to do while they were on tour when suddenly I
thought of something.
"Niall, are you going to tell
your fans?" He froze for a second, honestly I think he
forgot about that.
"I'm going to have
too." he thought for a moment before continuing.
"I'm going to have to before it gets out to the press.
Its a miracle they don't know already."
"I was thinking the same
thing. Directioners seem to know everything seconds after it
happens," I laughed slightly. In the back of my mind I
couldn't help but think they didn't know about Niall
cheating but pushed it even further back.
"I need to talk to the
lads," he groaned, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his
hands. I nodded but didn't say anything. He quickly pulled
out his phone and quickly texted all of them. After putting his
phone in the central dock he started the car and we began to
drive away from the hospital.
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