Quotes added on Wednesday, January 30 2013
Please, it would mean the
world to me if you read this.
Today I decided I was going to finally tell my friend about my eating disorder and depression becuase she always comes to me for help with hers. I told her about how I'm bullied and every day people tell me that I'm ugly, no one will ever love me, and that no one likes me and I should just leave our school. She responded with "omg you're not bullied and when your friends tell you that it doesn't count." I tried to tell her that even though there joking it doesn't feel like it. She then continued to yell at me because I'm "not actually bullied" and if they're hurting me to "just walk away." I tried to explain to her that it's not as easy as she thinks it is. She told me "omg yes it is! Holy sh*t!" Then she got angry at me when I told her that she's making me feel worse. I told her I try to help her all the time, so she said "you never actually help me, but whatever sweetens your tea." I told her that I'm sorry that I can't help her that much because I've been depressed since 5th grade and I'm still trying to get over it. She responded back to me an hour later saying "btw you're not depressed, just because you GOOGLED the symptoms doesn't mean you're depressed. You're just sad. And you haven't been sad since 5th grade." Then I finally told her something I thought I would never tell anyone. I told her I almost killed myself once but I backed out. She told me, "No you didn't." I'm glad she knew that. I wasn't really sure that I poured a whole bottle of pills into my hands and was tempted to swallow them. I wasn't really sure. For the rest of the night she continued to tell me that I was only sad and I'm not actually depressed. She called me pathetic almost every other sentence. That'll sure be the last time I ever help her or tust anyone again.
~Do you think she was being rude too, or was I overreacting? Apparently I'm too emotional according to my friends, so I have to ask to make sure.
i swear to god, i love my local dvd shop now...
so i was in the dvd shop, looking at the horror section...
and Never Say Never JB was in the horror section, in the number one section for scariest movie.
Needless to say, i died laughing.
so i was in the dvd shop, looking at the horror section...
and Never Say Never JB was in the horror section, in the number one section for scariest movie.
Needless to say, i died laughing.
(( "Ridng the train gives him TOO MUCH time to think, he has decided. ))
Too much thinking
can ruin
you."
-- Judith Guest, Ordinary People
{ ♥ }
once upon a time,
there was a girl who was so sad that she curled up into
brutal self-destruction, and
everyone thought that someone else would do something about
it, so no one ended up doing anything at all. she fell deeper
and deeper, and they sat and watched, because it wasn't
their price to pay.
I'm never enough for anyone..
his love for me is
bickering
and shin-kicking,
awkward
hugs and weird
texts, messing up my
hair and teasing me
about
everything under the sun. my love for him is
sneaking
glances when he's not looking and going out of my
way just to touch him, checking my
phone just in case it's him and saving the notes
he passes me in class so i can stick them into my
diary later.
I have 5 fingers for a
reason...
Thumb: To show the world I'm gonna be okay
Index: To pick out my dearest family members
Middle: For those b/i/t/c/h/e/s who push me too far
Ring: For that special guy when the time is right
Pinky: For my best friends and the promises I'll never break
nmq, saw it ages ago somewheren and thought it was cute
Thumb: To show the world I'm gonna be okay
Index: To pick out my dearest family members
Middle: For those b/i/t/c/h/e/s who push me too far
Ring: For that special guy when the time is right
Pinky: For my best friends and the promises I'll never break
nmq, saw it ages ago somewheren and thought it was cute
The scars on my wrist are finally fading.
I really hope it stays that way ♥
I really hope it stays that way ♥
