sorrow buried deep inside
no reflection on the outside
underneath the fakeness of my smile
my friends and family are in denial
and assume I'm alright
but little do they now I cry my self to sleep at night
during the day I hide
what is on the inside
I am left alone with my thoughts
I'm left to slowly rot
I take a deep breath
as I contemplate death
the thought of release
leaves me at peace
it may break my parents heart
but it is only the start
of a journey
that might leave me dead on a gurny
this is no joke
i will choke
i can't follow through
nobody has a clue
that i have them tricked
but i cant inflict
the pain i want
it is just a taunt
so it is a mental game
that leaves me to blame
-hiddengirl1995