You know what people cut? Because it s a distraction. For one
moment you feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is
the razor going into your skin, the blood dripping down your arm,
leg, Stomach. You don't think about how alone you are or how fat
and ugly you are. You don't think about the way people talk about
you behind your back you don't think about how your family or your
friends hate you. All you think about is the blood. And the
addictive part? Well that's when all the hurt and pain comes back.
When the cut isn't fresh and you feel all the build up if sadness
and loneliness inside you. So you have to do it again, but a little
deeper so the numbness will last longer. The pain inside will be
delayed longer. And you have to make the pain outside worse you
have to make the pain outside worse and worse. It's all about
control. You have it. You can't control the pain inside so you get
to control it on the outside.