Quotes added on Friday, May 10 2013

I love my sister so much. She is one of my favorite people. She is amazing and beautiful and I love her. But she makes me fel so worthless. The things she says to me. I know she has problems and I wonder what she would think if she knew mine. 
And Sid. My sisters AMAZING boyfriend who is my best friend and like my brother. He is my favorite person. I thought I could tell him anything. But he doesn't care. He's the only person I thought did. I love and care about him so much. He thinks I'm just some annoying little kid.
How would they feel if they saw what was under my clothes. What was on my skin. Would I be a little kid then? Would I still be some annoying girl that overreacts and doesn't have problems?

I love you Sid. you have no idea. I'm sorry you hate me and I'm sorry you don't understand. And I'm sorry I can't build up the courage to tell you about my skin.

30 Day Self-harm challenge

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it? 

3. What is your motivation to recover? 

4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not? 

5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most? 

6. What about it do you enjoy?

7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.

8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?
9. Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds? Discuss.

10. How do you feel about your scars?

11. Strangest place (school, park, etc) you’ve ever injured yourself?

12. Where do you keep your ‘tools’? (Your room, in a box, disposed of them?)
13. What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?

14. Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
15. Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?

16. What advice would you give to someone about self harm?

17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves? 

18. Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
19. List 3 reasons that recovery is worth it.

20. What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm.

21. Have you tried to stop in the past? What are you doing differently this time?
22. Where do you feel the most calm?
23. What is your favorite inspirational quote?

24. What are some of your main triggers? Why? 

25. Do you know any statistics about self harm?

26. What is something that makes you the most happy?

27. Discuss any and all progress you have made.

28. What short-term goals do you have?

29. Do you follow any self-harm blogs?

30. Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to look back on.

after care. trying so hard not to pick at scabs. or slid a knife through day old cuts.

clean up. all the blood. seeing all of the damage i acutally did was so... idk, wahts the word, like reality checking? not right wording, oh well. in the moment, you dont care about seeing your white sheets stained, or the blood drip onto your carpet. all you care about is the control. being able to control how much pain you feel. and you know why youre feeling that pain. but when the act is over, and you look at the mess youve made, you just... shocking.

hiding it. enough said.

 

grandma:  Why   is   that   pink   cotton   candy   talking

 

   grandma    that    is    nicki   minaj

The person I care about and love most, the only one I thought cared about me, the only one I thought I could tell anything to, hates me. You have no idea what it feels like. I am broken. I literally, don't have anybody else. At all. Must I exsist? I want to just tell him how much I love him and show him my wrists. But I can't. And I won't. I wat to scream. Bye.

Live is about forgiving

And forgetting……

You don’t need

Love to be happy!