it's just difficult, because
i was brought up coming top of the class in everything, i got
to do extension work while everyone else did the boring stuff,
i was told over and over again that i was special and smart and
that i would go far in life. but then i got to high school and
all of a sudden, i'm not that kid. my grades are average. i
didn't achieve like they told me i would.
it's not that i want to be the best; it's that i wish i
hadn't grown up expecting that i would
be.