Quotes added on Thursday, July 11 2013
So my mom calls her period,
"Aunt Flo"
She calls pads,
"Magic carpets"
And she calls tampons,
"Firecrackers"
So, basically, when she goes shopping she will say something like this
" Im going to the dollar store to get some firecrackers, do you need some? or do you want magic carpet??"
AND THEN my sister, of course, says
"Firecrackers?!?!? :D I WANT SOME!!!"
"Aunt Flo"
She calls pads,
"Magic carpets"
And she calls tampons,
"Firecrackers"
So, basically, when she goes shopping she will say something like this
" Im going to the dollar store to get some firecrackers, do you need some? or do you want magic carpet??"
AND THEN my sister, of course, says
"Firecrackers?!?!? :D I WANT SOME!!!"
i'm starting to feel like guys only talk to me because they
just want one thing and that's it.
Well i'm sorry but i'm not, i know if i take pictures that shows cleavage i don't mean to do it all the time i really don't im still a virgin and i think the only reason why i like taking pictures of myself like that is because of me being r.aped and having the guy walk off the jury for nothing, i mean i tried so hard with everything i did, the only reason i told my aunt and uncle what happend was because i was afraid that the guy would do something like that again but worse to me and not only that but to my little cousins , i did everything i could to protect them& i. And i feel like when i take pictures it's my own little escape from the pain and hurt that i feel. I mean its hard for me because no matter who i let in and is a guy i have trust issues because the last guy that had ever touched me was the person who r.aped me and no matter how hard i try to erase those nights in my mind it still comes back to me. And when i do talk to guys i feel they only see me as a second choice , back up plan , or someone to take advantage of and when i tell them how i feel and what i went through they feel sorry and etc, then when i say i wanna take things slow they end up leaving. All i want in my life is someone who understands me, someone who can make me happy and smile even when i'm at my weakest points and someone who will stand by me through it all even if at times i'm hard to handle. Am i bad person? , because i feel like i am pretty worthless.
Well i'm sorry but i'm not, i know if i take pictures that shows cleavage i don't mean to do it all the time i really don't im still a virgin and i think the only reason why i like taking pictures of myself like that is because of me being r.aped and having the guy walk off the jury for nothing, i mean i tried so hard with everything i did, the only reason i told my aunt and uncle what happend was because i was afraid that the guy would do something like that again but worse to me and not only that but to my little cousins , i did everything i could to protect them& i. And i feel like when i take pictures it's my own little escape from the pain and hurt that i feel. I mean its hard for me because no matter who i let in and is a guy i have trust issues because the last guy that had ever touched me was the person who r.aped me and no matter how hard i try to erase those nights in my mind it still comes back to me. And when i do talk to guys i feel they only see me as a second choice , back up plan , or someone to take advantage of and when i tell them how i feel and what i went through they feel sorry and etc, then when i say i wanna take things slow they end up leaving. All i want in my life is someone who understands me, someone who can make me happy and smile even when i'm at my weakest points and someone who will stand by me through it all even if at times i'm hard to handle. Am i bad person? , because i feel like i am pretty worthless.
It's time to put the blade down
No matter how much your going through.
You don't need to hurt yourself like this anymore.
You deserve better.
Go out and have fun, Even if your by yourself.
It's time to stop telling yourself your ugly and fat, and don't deserve to live.
It's time to accept yourself the way you are,
Because there is only one you.
"Easier said then done" right?
Yes, But if you really try, You can get through it.
I was once one of those girls.
Who couldnt go a day without cutting.
I just recently stopped,Because Now, I have something to live for,
Even though he doesn't know it.
He saved me.
So do me a favor,
And stop,
You're Beautiful,
So put the blade down.
I promise,
Everything will be alright.
It will get better
(R.123)
(Justme)
