I want to cry. I want to smile. I'm out of tears. I can't seem to
smile. I want to sleep. I want to dream. I can't fall asleep. I
can't stop this nightmare. I want to bleed. I need you now. I
can't bring myself to start again. I can't have you now.
I love you. I love you so much. For the first time I don't want
to give up on us. I'm not going to run away like I always do. I
don't know when we will get a true chance but when we do we will
make it work. I miss you, love.