Quotes added on Friday, February 28 2014
The problem is,
Once you learn the realities of se.xism, ra.cism and misogyny
You start seeing them everywhere
From the mouths of your parents, grandparents, siblings, teachers, friends and strangers
And you realize that it was always there, only you can't ignore it anymore
And then you see how they ignore you when you speak out against it
And that, infuriates you to the point of tears
Once you learn the realities of se.xism, ra.cism and misogyny
You start seeing them everywhere
From the mouths of your parents, grandparents, siblings, teachers, friends and strangers
And you realize that it was always there, only you can't ignore it anymore
And then you see how they ignore you when you speak out against it
And that, infuriates you to the point of tears
I want to
be her Superman,
fight any
battle, no matter
the opponent. Do anything just
for her, no
matter the price.
I want to
be her Iron
Man, the suit of
armor that
protects
her from anything
and can make
her feel on
top of the
world. I want to
be her hero; the one
that she
knows is
always there
for her.
But most importantly
I just want
to be hers.
Someone she'll
never let go
of.
I just want to feel his arms around me,
put mine around him,
and
not let go....
Since young, I
wasn't really taught by my parents on 'how to love'.
Life used to be very easy for me as we could afford to buy
anything we wanted without complaints. I basically just did
anything I wanted to, it was easy; but coming to reality right
now when I'm becoming older, it's hard to accept
people's love. I've rejected many, I've given many,
I've learnt a lot. I've tried to be a good person, it
didn't help much - I got betrayed, got played, got cheated,
got fooled; and then I became a bad person, it was great - made
enemies with many and I had friends whom actually are still
friends with me since young. I tried being a nicer person again,
but however with me doing so, things don't go the way I want
them to, you know? I had to overcome being lied to and being
fooled, it's not so nice. Once, I felt like I've begun to
like this significant other, so I took a chance into talking to
him, trying to make friends with him, trying to make him
comfortable talking to me; I had to be nice. But you know what?
He demanded for things, things I couldn't give. I tried so
hard to avoid some topics I wouldn't go through with him, I
tried so hard, but he just kept coming and coming. Demanding, for
more...and more. Trust, is hard. Being nice is such a misery,
I'd always have to remind myself not to hurt anyone's
feelings, but now, I really can't. When people are too nice,
other people treat it as an advantage to take over. I
really don't know to whether be nice or
not.
A
I can't even play hard to get as I'm already hard enough to
want.
^Problem right there. XD
^Problem right there. XD
I officially have no hope for a long lasting, happy relationship...
The couple that I thought was so cute and would actually make it
through everything, just broke up a few days ago and this morning
when I walked into school, I saw her all upset and I asked her if
she was okay and she replied back "I haven't really been okay all
week but I'll be fine. Thanks for caring." I felt so bad for her
because she's so nice to everyone and during my first period class,
I sit right next to him and all I heard him do was talk bad about
her. They were together forever and to see them break up makes me
lose all hope.
