Honestly. I just need some advice. I'll
try not to make this
too long, but I
could go on for days.
Lol.
Anyways, I met this
guy in September, and dated him for four
months all the way
until last Christmas. We had some of the
best an worst times. He
was addicted to a drug called DXM. It consumed his
life and at times I
felt second to his drugs. It all went a
little too far for me,
so I broke up with him on Christmas,
and he left to go to
Colorado. (I live in Indiana.) I haven't seen him since
Christmas day,
but I've
been talking to him
still. He said he's clean now, has a job, and an
apartment. He said
If I come to
where he's at I can
get a job and we can live comfortably. I really
want to. He was
my first
everything, so of
course I have an undeniable connection with him. But
sometimes I wonder
if I just miss having someone there for me, to kiss and laugh with me and
just make me really
happy. I feel
like I was in love,
but I don't know if
i was just in love with
all the attention I
got from him.
I've kind of tried
to
talk to other guys, but
I'm always
too scared to go see
them, because I just feel like I'm doing something
wrong. I'm really
considering going to see him, but I
don't know if I should. I
can whenever I want, but I have so much
still here at home. I
just turned 18, and my whole family lives here.
I'll be leaving my
best friend,
my mom, my brothers,
and every other important person in my life, and
I'm just not sure
if I'm ready for all that. I have my whole
life here. Do I
really wanna leave for one guy? But he's not just a guy. He's my first love.
Someone I'll always
feel a connection with. I'm so torn, so if
you can just put your
input in I'd really appreciate it! I know it's
a little long, but I
can't help it.
THANKYOU!