“I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how
it’s really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth
is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it
turns out, you're always glad you took it."
so, I may or may not have bought
condoms just to squirt lotion in one,
tie it off, and put it in a half filled bottle
of water so I could chuck it out the
window when we went past "his"
house. and that is honestly as bada.ss as I get.
(it landed on their porch. by their door.
and they weren't home. so when they
get home they'll see it. lol.)
There is a guy. He is nice. He is sweet. But he knows me
but also doesn't.He used to love me but I turned away
and now again he wants to meet up and we have talked for hours on
the phone or skype. He does not know how I feel. He doesn't
know about the times when i wake up in the night. He doesn't
know about the scars. He is always very happy just like I pretend
to be. I'm afraid to love him because I don't want to
burden him with me and my problems because after all he
doesn't really know me.