Quotes added on Sunday, March 8 2015
And
it was dark outside, I couldn't see nothing for
miles. In the pitch dark, you were supposed to be my
shining beacon. You were supposed to show me the way.
Clouds gathered and the night grew colder. I kept
checking my phone, waiting to get an explanation from
you, on why you weren't here already. Did you get
lost? Did you get a flat tire? Did you forget..again?
Thoughts kept creeping into my mind, but I fought
them away. Because you promised. But I should have
known.
I
appreciate that you're trying. You've made
some changes; you smile more, and you actually seem
genuine when you're doing it. If I hadn't
known you before, you would be someone I'd look
up to, you'd be someone I'd like to be
friends with. But the thing is, I did know the person
you were before. And to be honest, I don't think
you've changed. I had stuck by your side for
years. I know you. You don't do nice. You
don't know how to be nice. You just know how to
act it. And it's not fair that I seem like the
bitter one. You can't be an awful person during
all that time, and then suddenly announce you've
changed and expect everything to go back to the way
it was. It doesn't work that way. You work to get
things back to how they once were. And now, if
I'm being completely and whole heartedly honest,
I don't even want things to get better. You were
a bad person. As long as I'm concerned you still
are a bad person. And my opinion of you will stay
that way until you start actually changing. Words are
words. Actions are the ones that really count at the
end of the day. And again, I appreciate that
you're trying. Try a little harder.
You
have to understand that I don't like fencing
myself off like this. I don't enjoy cutting
people out of my life. It's just something I have
to do. All my life I've had people pushing me
around, telling me what to do. Making rules for me,
and what did I do? I took it. I let people who
didn't deserve to be in my life, stay. I've
learnt keeping them only just wastes my time and
energy, and those are the two most valuable things I
possess. So why should I give it away to them?
It's not fun, and it's certainly not easy. I
don't want to treat people who used to mean so
much to me like strangers, but I can only waste so
much time and energy until it completely drains
me.
I DON'T DO ROMANCE.
Don't cheat on people, because the rest of their fücking
life when vodka fills their veins at one a.m., they're going to
wonder why the hëll they weren't good enough for you and it will
slowly tear them apart. And just because you aren't there
anymore, doesn't mean it isn't your fault. Every "I love you"
you've ever said will echo in their head and no one deserves to
feel like that.
L
O
V
E
is just another word
a boy couldn't pronounce.
O
V
E
is just another word
a boy couldn't pronounce.
The real definition of 'never mind' is 'you should've listened the first time'.
