These Are The Things I Never Told You (V)
I know that I've messed up and God, I know I don't deserve your
friendship. But I can't stay away and apparently neither could
you, and maybe in some way this thing we do was meant to be. I
don't know. I never will. And sometimes, when it feels like I've
given my all and I have nothing more to give to this world, I
wish I didn't care, about it or about you.
But I still lay awake at night, gazing at the ceiling in the dark
as if it were the stars, wondering if you do the same. I still
stare up at the sky and think about life, about time gone by. And
when it's four a.m. and I can't get to sleep and I'm craving
raindrops on a tin roof and your words lighting up the darkness
of my night, I can't help to imagine what life would be like if I
had never left. It's a good life. But it's not mine.