Of you managing to make me
feel so worthless. Of me feeling all of this. I am so done with
being so stupid and so sensitive and I just want this all to
f/ucking stop.
And maybe you should start living your life for yourself.
Or maybe you should stop being so hurt. Maybe you'll wake up
in the morning and feel like a fool.
But you'll never know until you close your eyes and drift to
sleep. You'll never know until you've lost what it feels
to be awake. Because being alive and living aren't the same
thing. And sometimes you need to fade away for a few hours.
The worst part is that none if this is your
fault.
That, maybe I could justify this and all these things that I feel
if any of this was your fault. But it's not. It has always
been my fault. I feel too much and I am far too sensitive. And
I'm so sorry that I've messed up once more.