Remember how I would always take the longest showers, and you
would get so frustrated? Lately I’ve noticed, though I
suspect it’s always been this way and I just
haven’t realized, my shower head has been making the most
awful, shrill noises when it’s turned on for too long.
It’s the kind of noise that makes you lose your train of
thought, and I've wondered if it’s part of the reason
why you didn’t come back. I tried everything to make it
stop; twisting it, lowering the pressure, taking it apart; and
nothing has worked. I can’t think at all like I used to
be able to, so I’ve had less time to sort out my
emotions. But I guess I can’t complain, it’s warm
and showers aren’t really for thinking, they’re for
I used to hang up wrinkled shirts in the bathroom while I
showered so that the steam could straighten them out—you
and I both know I would be disastrous with an iron—but
lately they’ve been staying wrinkled. I’ve turned
the water on as hot as it will go to make more steam, but the
shirts remain wrinkled even then.
Naturally, the steam fogs up my mirror now, so it’s
difficult to see myself. But there’s a small spot where,
(I have no idea who did it, but I have the strangest feeling it
was you) if I squint, I can barely make out my irises.
It’s not much, but it’s enough for me to brush my
hair in the right direction most mornings.