The only reason I say risky things and do risky actions
is because I don't want to spend my life thinking 'What if....' I
used to let myself always play it safe, and I always wonder what
if. So now I just go for it. Even if i'm having bad
anxiety.
I chase that feeling of an eighteen year old who didn't
know what loss was. Now I'm a stranger, and I miss the days
of a life still permanent, mourn the years before I got carried
away.