Quotes added on Monday, August 3 2015

Pretend all you want
But it's no use.
Fake happiness,
I see right through it.
Your flesh may smile
but your soul holds the truth.
Don't worry my darling,
I get you.

for me, heartbreak wasn't crying alone in my room with blood stained wrists. it wasn't eating icecream while listening to what used to be our songs. heartbreak was drinking 12 shots of vodka, trying to fill the hole that he left in me. it was crying like an idiot on the bus on the way to school, because the thought of seeing him made me sick to my stomach. heartbreak was not eating for days & not even telling my best friends. heartbreak was not staying in my room for days at a time. it was crying myself to sleep for months. Heartbreak was alot of things for me. but it wasn't beautiful or poetic. it was f*cking painful.

"How to pretend it doesn't hurt" when he says he doesn't love you anymore, roll your shoulders back, and look him right in the eye. smile. and ask him why he didn't leave you sooner. tell him that there are boys who'd be proud to say they loved you. and when he says that you two can try again later, tell him that in two years, you won't even remember his name. and that if he didn't know how to love you the first time, he won't know how to do it the next.

I don't know why I never told you I was scared to love and be attached. and I don't know why I never told you how I felt that day I was laying against you on the couch when you told me you had an undying love for me. or the night you told me you were falling in love with me for the first time in your life. & I don't know why I never told you to not tell me those things because anything could happen and people change their minds all the d*mn time. & I never told you how I felt when we were laying in my bed in the dark and you stroked my hair as I started tearing up because I was so afraid of losing you. & I never told you to be careful with what you say because I became attached and maybe we wouldn't have moved so fast with our words and maybe we'd still be together if I would have told you what I felt.