I can honestly say I've never felt this awful in my
life before. I couldn't look at you without crying my eyes
out...knowing how mad I made you. I like to please people so it
hurts me to see loved ones upset and I care so much that it hurts
so much. I can't even look myself in the mirror, just looking
at myself makes me mad again. I can change things, I've done it
before of course I can do that again. I'll find a new way to
manage, I know I will.