Now, the thing that frightens me more day after day
is: "What am I going to do when I won't have you?"
know it is very stupid of me to keep ruminating this
thought over and over again, but I am helpless, I
can't stop thinking. And my obsessive beahviour will
only start to bother you. Don't tell me that I'm
going to lose you--it's not true. Bitter truths are
than sugar coated lies. I have put myself in this
situation, it is my fault. I never wanted to love
anyone. But I am captivated by you. By your
simplicity; by your compassionate nature; by your
cuteness; and by every little thing about you.