what is a constant? what is a habit?
something that happens again and again and ah-
b-but how often do we ever notice a constant?
do you ever notice how you tend to pull on
and pinch your lip whenever you feel nervous
you leave a mark and let it hurt a little, ugh
it happens again and again and ah-
do you ever see the way your eyes flicker away
so quickly whenever a man approaches you
that maybe he doubts himself if he ever
had eye contact with you in the first place?
is this you being afraid of him - or yourself?
it happens over and over again
and again and again and ah- habits,
didn't notice that i did any of this til you came.
circe;
"habits"
there are many things i wish i had not done;
i wish i didn't make you think you had a chance
i wish i didn't let you pour youself out to me
i wish i didn't given you the privilige of touch
i wish i didn't allow myself your misery
because you do not deserve any of me
you do not deserve to say "i love you"
to me, no. never to me, please never.
because honest to god, i wish i did not
have to feel guilty for not being able
to return the bloody sentiment
circe; "i wish
to run"