Quotes added on Sunday, November 8 2015
I don’t trust anyone who hasn’t
been self-destructive in some way. And who hasn’t gone
through some sort of self-loathing. You’ve got to bang
yourself around a bit to know yourself.
I don't know how
to be emotional. Showing emotion is what makes us human, right?
It's like I reprogrammed myself to never tell anyone when
things began to hurt. Like I trained myself to internalise the
stress and pain. Sometimes I love it about myself. That I
can't let emotions cloud my judgement or whatever. But
I'm scared I'll be like this forever. So I pin this
hope that I'll find someone who I can unload some of my
worries onto, and just talk about it. I do have people I could
do that to now, but I don't want to burden them. Hah. A
burden. It's funny how it's totally fine, and it
practically invite people to be a burden on me, but the minute
I let them in to my troubles I worry about being a burden on
them. Wow that sucks.
Don't worry about
me. I'm messy but I always work things out. I'm far
from suicidal so don't even worry about that. I'd never
die at the hands of someone like me. I can kill Mosquitos, but
anything other than that is way too beyond me. I love
psychological thrillers. I learnt this just this fortnight. I
can't kill myself, I don't even know myself yet. What
if I find out I really like sun flowers? Or I become really
obsessed with living in Japan? What if I pick up speaking
German really easily and live there for a month and meet
someone there and get married and have a whole new life. Or
what if I fix my Arabic and go to my home country and meet
someone there and start my new life there. My life could have
so many alternate endings and I will always choose another
option, if there even comes a thought about suicide. Because
why the frick frack yikkity yak shik shakkity shak
not?
Wouldn't It be the perfect crime
If I stole your heart
And you stole mine?
/<3\ /<3\
That is a very bad "drawing" xDD
If I stole your heart
And you stole mine?
/<3\ /<3\
That is a very bad "drawing" xDD
But compared to your eyes
Nothing shines
Quite as bright
~Mayday Parade~
You must've made some kind of mistake
I asked for death, but instead I'm awake
The Devil told me "No room for cheats"
I thought I sold my soul, but he kept the receipt
~Bring Me The Horizon~
Your
dead eyes before mine
The way they're missing their whites,
Yeah, they're just right.
I know you're dead inside,
And that's what I like, yeah, I like.
~Pvris aka Paris~
The way they're missing their whites,
Yeah, they're just right.
I know you're dead inside,
And that's what I like, yeah, I like.
~Pvris aka Paris~
