A
lot of nothings disguised as people will try to find you and make
you like them; but do not shrink, do not become small for
something so small just because it is easy. You have a
responsibility to remain hungry, vast and rippling, alarming and
strange. Do not abandon all the grandness you'll become in
exchange for toxic company.
—Rupi Kaur
When my mother says I deserve better I snap to your defense out
of habit. “He still loves me” I shout; she looks at
me with defeated eyes, the way a parent looks at a child when
they know this is the type of pain even they can't fix and
says “It means nothing to me if he loves you if he
can't do a single wretched thing about it”.
When you have to interrupt your family's thanksgiving so you
can be taken to the ER. Then the hospital's pain meds
don't work and the pain is making you exhausted but also
preventing you from sleeping. And then you're crying
from both pain and tiredness.