Quotes added on Thursday, December 3 2015

Voices


I can hear them
memories are speaking
they whisper softly
voices always there
shadows in the dark
dark on dark contrasted
fading into me
moment to moment
seducing my thoughts
holding me
swirling glitters of doubt
dreams I dare not dream
enticing daemons
angels unaware
and despair
abandoned
carving my duality
a ghost in the life of my friends
piercing my sanity
the source of my pain and strength

ugh god i feel like this is the only place that i can vent. Robby i want you sooo bad and idk if youre into this or not but i am 😅 i wrote you this but never sent it:"Robby I hope you can understand that I made a mistake on Friday I didn't mean to worry you or annoy you or upset you but honestly you were the one I texted first to apologize to because you're the one that matters the most to me. I felt that if everyone else knew it would be fine but if you knew I was done for. Srry if it seemed weird or If I was keeping you up but my first instinct was "oh god he's gonna hate me I have to fix it" These days I haven't got much to look forward to so I couldn't have afforded to lose one of the only things that puts me at ease. I feel like even though we've only really texted for a couple days that if I told you anything you would be there for me, and I really appreciate that. I know you don't know exactly what happened but I'd like to keep it like that. Plus I'm sorry that all of my friends and their families feel the need to harass you because I have a crush on you. Anyways I know you're probably thinking like what the heck because this text has no order or organization but I really just dumped my heart out so I wouldn't expect anything less. Thanks for reading this even though I'm probably just a nuisance to you now...I hope we can talk again but I understand if you don't wanna."anyways...if you see this some way somehow then yeah i like you but you already knew that...im sorry i cant just be normal. im sorry i cant just back off because its obvious that you dont like me, its just a feeling that i cant shake and i dont know why im sorry that...idk im just sorry. even if nothing ever works out at least i can say i tried and i hope youll still think of me every now and again

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You stood there infront of me just close enough to touch,
close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of.

You can't wake up, this is not a dream.

                                                                                               
 Don't pretend to apologize for actions you now regret.
                                                                                               
 Don't try to trick my mind into deceiving my memory.
                                                                                               
 Don't make excuses for not giving a good reason.
                                                                                               
 Just come here.
                                                                                               
 Just be quiet.
                                                                                               
 Just stay.

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