Anyone can jump
in and be my therapist
Is there some improvement in our relationship?
I suppose- he's told me he loves me once, while hugging me
why didn't he look me in the eyes and say it
the way my ex did. I said it back after thinking about what I just
heard.
I got lost once in a place literally full of a bad crowd, and he
dropped me home. Random kind act. Its raining, he makes me take the
skytrain. Because it's too dangerous, doesn't call to ask
if I'm doing okay, whether I made it home after he gets home
nothing. I get home at 11:20. When I was dropped off on the sktrain
at 10.
We don't discuss my occupation anymore, it's a thing of the
past. My parents have met him, I've met his. Even been to his
house dozens of times. Everyone including me is saying lets get
married. He. He told me he's used to being the baby of the
family. That's why he doesn't rush. I ask my gut right now
why he does not discuss marriage or give me a date like normal
couples do. He is unsure.
Why doesn't he text me the way I text him constantly. If things
don't work out with him, the fact that my parents are involved
now - they're going to end up finding somoen for me because
they're going to think that I'm not good at it. What
happens to him, will happen to him after that it can't be any
of my concern.
I don't want to hurt myself again, I'm hurting now.
Questioning weather this is a real relationship, does he love me if
so? why doesn't he look me in the eyes, why doesn't he talk
about marriage, why when i bring up marriage he gets so f'n
weird.
Why all of a sudden is he saying that I'm perfect appearance
wise when before he used to say 24 inch waist is ideal, he straight
up said 2 days ago on the phone i need to do something about my
acne and stop eating junk food.
As of now, I'm talking to him less and less everyday.
It's his turn to make things right. I'm sick of
trying. If he turns out to be a douche, hell every guy on the
planet is a douche. Period. So whoever I end up with will be no
better than him. Life.
I told him today I'm not mad, why would I be. He said he
doesn't know. *Munwhre bells are ringing*
I'm 23 now, still no ring on my finger. No career either so.
hmm. I'm not that pretty right now either, so I might as well
work on that while I'm ignoring him.
I won't be posting our picures on insitagram anymore. I'm
just going to make us a separate account. on ig