Quotes added on Tuesday, March 29 2016

and sometimes, i miss you so much i forget what it's like to breathe

I created this account when I was 13 and I thought I'd stumbled across something amazing. And it's only been three years, but I'm back. It's March 29th, 2016. I'm in tenth grade now. And from this point onwards I'm gonna keep this as my journal. This is a stupid idea and I may not even pull through with it. But 10:52PM isn't made for rational choices. Right now, if I were to say I've hit a rough patch it would be an understatent. I've been stuck here for so long. But I'm gonna write my way through it. Witty profiles - on this website I get to type what I feel (which is much better than writing rn because i lack the active creatvity to write pretty things). I type what I think and feel and that way I get to express myself in a way that isn't completely controlled by me and on this site I won't feel the need to impress anyone. Well here goes nothing. I'll do anything to get myself to be the person who I want to be. This is so difficult to do on my own. I might be lonely but I need to be able to depend on myself before I can form any sort of bonds with other people. 

5:38 PM
You smiled at me like other boys do
in movies and I swear your eyes
twinkled at how I couldn't stop
laughing at your corny jokes. Your
friends keep talking about us and I 
honestly couldn't care less. I just
want you to love me as much as I
love you.

Honestly death would be the better
option right now rather than facing
all these problems on my own.

I'm horrible at taking tests
and starting conversations
and right now it's 4 A.M.
on a school night
and I can't fall asleep
because I'm so scared that
loving you was the only thing
that I've ever been good at and
I couldn't even do that right.