i
feel
like
my
friends
don't
tell me a lot of the
things that they tell other people they talk to, and
for the simple fact that I don't kiss a.ss. When
you choose to confide in me, you're choosing to
hear my perspective on a situation, and I give it to you,
positive or negative. I don't praise you when I truly think
you've done something rude or asinine. I don't pretend
to agree with everything that comes out of your mouth. I tell
you straight up when I believe you used poor judgment, and
I'll explain why I believe so if asked, but I don't
apologize for having my view on the matter, because I feel that
if you're telling me about it you want to hear what I have
to say about it as well. And I guess people don't like
that, and I guess I understand why. They like being applauded,
they like having their pride validated. No one wants to hear
that was stupid or that was really uncalled
for as opposed to that was savage, girl, kill
'em! But it still stings a bit. It makes me feel like
I'm not worthy of being confided in. And I hate being out
of the loop. I hate not knowing things that other people do, no
matter how trivial the piece of information. And, honestly,
I'm just a jealous, high maintenance person who doesn't
like feeling like somebody else is seen as smarter or more
important to said friend and so they'd rather give them
details that I'm always spared.