you ruined me as a human being. you completely destroyed me
and i don’t know how to come back from it. i’m trying to find
myself but just as things start to make sense to me i feel the
thunder rumbling in my bones again and they shift and move and
everything falls right back out of place and i'm left swallowing
down blood and lashing out on people, insisting that i am fine. i
am trying so hard to be steady and stand on my feet again but
sometimes it’s just so göddämn hard.