you ruined me as a human being. you completely destroyed
me and i don’t know how to come back from it. i’m trying to
find myself but just as things start to make sense to me i feel
the thunder rumbling in my bones again and they shift and move
and everything falls right back out of place and i'm left
swallowing down blood and lashing out on people, insisting that i
am fine. i am trying so hard to be steady and stand on my feet
again but sometimes it’s just so göddämn hard.