Remove the old texts from your phone, the messages that gave you
hope, that made you believe that the two of you could be something.
Delete them all. Don't give yourself the opportunity to search
for meaning. Maybe at one time these messages would signify a
future, but now they are simply the past. Let them be so. Delete
And then erase the tough texts, too, the ones where he took too
long to reply, the ones where he told you he wasn't looking for
anything serious. Get rid of the texts that confirmed your worst
fears: he was not invested in you and never would be. You got the
information you needed. No need to keep opening the wounds. Erase
the texts. It's okay.
And now scroll to his name one last time. And almost send him a
message. Draft out a declaration saying you still want to be
friends, even though you both know that's not true. Lace
together these beautiful lies stitched with hope and good
intentions, and hover your thumb above "Send". But
instead, backspace it all.
And then delete his number.
Stare at your phone for a minute to let it sink in that you
won't be reaching out to him on your toughest nights and that
he won't be the one to comfort you. You won't get to hear
how his mom is doing, you won't get to see him on New Years
Eve. Let it all sink in that his name is no longer going to pop up
on your screen when he gets home from school.
He is no longer a part of your life and you are no longer a part of
his. And this is okay. You are okay.
Now put your phone down. Walk away from it all for a while. Feel
the distinct mixture of sadness and freedom pumping through your
veins, the feeling that only comes with the end of something
painful and the begining of something more. Be proud- you deleted
his number, which is one step closer to removing him from your