I thought you changed your mind; didnt sleep all night
thinking about everything I use to fear with you leaving. Its
crazy. How am I supposed to promise you anything like actually
living my life when I dont even know what its like to really live
because the only definition of life I know is what we showed to
eachother. The f*cking love we had for eachother is so unreal
that it hurts my chest to think about it. I can promise you this
though. My love for you will never die. My memories of you and
us, those will never leave my mind; no matter how bad I wish they
could or they would.. They wont leave. &' Yeah about Gilbert; I
found out that morning and my heart sank. I dont know if its
because he was my first boyfriend or maybe because I thought he
was working on a better life; but the whole situation is sh*tty.
I just dont think about it. &' With my focus on blocking that
out, apparently that has opened the flood gates to the entrance
of our memories.