Quotes added on Tuesday, August 8 2017

Do you think itd be easier if we could be friends? (9:21 am tues)

I write like a poet I speak the words of a song I sing like an angel… who tends to get the notes wrong. I’m funny and friendly Or I pretend to be I’m weird but I’m witty I guess that’s just me. I wear my sneakers To parties with dresses I paint on the walls And I make frosting messes I suppose I’m annoying But I bet you are too. I guess that’s my panache. How about you? Say what you want to say It doesn’t matter no more I won’t choose your way I already locked that door Be what ever you want I honestly don’t even care Go ahead and taunt No word from me, Do whatever you want to It won’t do nothing towards me For I can promise you I’m the one you’ll never see Whatever road you choose It matters to me none For it’s just old news The drama is done

To talk to eachother instead of coming on here or for my depression? 12:13

I dont know. Both,?

I don't even want to think about it honestly because its not gunna happen so why 2:06

Okay. I dont know what to say dude but you cent be in this funk as soon as Im finding my way out. Remember ; Just Breathe 🌻 .

It used to be fun to jokingly reply ya mama when my mom asked from another room who was in the kitchen or teased me about anything and now it's not fun to say it nor I imagine is it easy for her to hear it. It just reminds us both that my grandmom, her mom, isn't here anymore. When I said it in the past it was silly but it was also a nice reminder that she was alive, well, and my mom could jokingly threaten to tell her that I was talking bad about her. Talking about her isn't a taboo in the house now, of course, we mention her all the time. But in this instance, it feels wrong. I've avoided using the phrase at all for the last two months, but today it slipped out, and there was silence afterwards. I felt bad that I'd said it aloud, and my mom had nothing to retort. She was in another room, and I could picture her sitting there letting my words hit her.... God, how I wish there was any truth left to it. That any little noise or minor mishap really was ''ya mama''. 

"You keep a lot to yourself because it's difficult to find people who understand."

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