thought about leaving a lot, but it's just superficial. not
my true heart. when i feel a sudden pain, i wish it away. when i
was given the option between pulling out my tooth or preserving
it, i didn't think twice about coughing up almost half a
grand. i say i don't care, that none of it matters...but
still i'm safeguarding my life. it won't be over until
there's nothing to protect. i don't need to look forward
to anything. i just need to preserve what i have.