Quotes added on Monday, November 4 2019

For those who don’t know or understand. Men deal with emotional pain as well as women. Social norms are stated that all men shouldn’t cry or have feeling. That no matter what we have to be strong for ourselves and our family. That having these sensations are a showing of weakness. It’s the complete opposite. Like peoples it’s about to 2020. Social norms need to be broken down and re-evaluated. Honestly I notice that the whole thing about guys having to be tall, handsome, have a beard, abs ,just having money or how girls have to be a certain height, shape, size, weight, how they dress is what people want. Whatever happened to having that connection with people? Whatever happened to going out and not being on your phone and just talking with the person you are with? Why can’t people just also like people for who they are? Why do they have to act a certain way or dress a certain way in order to be socially acceptable to the masses? Whatever happened to being able to communicate with that’s one special person? Now I’m not saying that I’m a saint and not done this to someone because I have. I know I haven’t been the best at communicating to which this has cost me many a great deal of pain and suffering due to my own negligence of my own relationships. I know I’ve caused emotional pain to others as well. Practically anyone I’ve ever been in a relationship. Truth is what people want is unknowable until the right stone is cast. When that moment finally comes, that sensation of happiness comes to fruition.
I’m a guy and I’ve been hurt emotionally and physically. I’ve shed my own blood and my own tears feeling like I’ve been nothing worthless. To this day that sadly hasn’t changed. It sucks because I honesty know when I created this path for me. Right as I graduated high school, I realized that all my pain because my stupid actions and ignorance. I wish I could forgive myself for all these things I’ve done. But I have no idea how it would happen for me. Instead,I have to keep on moving forward trying to make a difference for myself but all I can say is that I forgive the others that added to this. To all the anger I let out because of my stupidity and jealousy. Thinking I wasn’t good enough when I was. Seeing how much people loved me but I didn’t show how much I loved them back. I’m sorry for being a bad person. I’m sorry for being someone that was a complete idiot and jerk. I wish I could see them again. And see their smile again. I miss you...