It has been years since we spoke but I still think of you everyday.
Now it's too late to put into words how I felt and how scared I
was to let myself be with you. Both of us felt this huge pull
towards each other but I kept running away, thinking we'd have
time. I didn't want our friendship to change and I wasn't
ready for the next step. And now that you're gone, all I'm
left with is the guilt of not taking a chance for once in my life.
This guilt is also twisted with feelings of betrayal when I think
about the last time I saw you. I was vulnerable and you took
advantage of that. I still feel the way your hands slid across my
body and how you pressed yourself on top of me and I couldn't
do anything to stop you. 4 years later I am still struggling with
this yet I would give anything to see you again