I
had it all, for once in my life
I had the
perfect boyfriend. He loved me more than
anything in the world. I have the
perfect friends.
The kind that are there for you whenever you need
them. I have a great family life.
We all get along
and I can go to them for
anything. School is so
perfect. Perfect grades, perfect friends. Everything
is just amazing. But the sad part is, I don't want it.
I
miss how things used to be
Because I don't get the
butterflies anymore from
him. I don't feel the same way. I
want to be a
different person now, I don't want to
be perfect.
I miss fighting and screaming and
crying. I miss
that hoping that some boy
would like me, not
having some boy telling he loves
me all the time.
I want my grades to slip a
bit and my friends to
prove to me that everything
isn't always just
peachy. And I want to stop
lying to myself and
saying that I love him, because the truth is, I
don't.
I
just need things to make sense