To know i wasn't the
first, hurts. To know that i wasn't the one the
things were thought about. To feel like second best.These words
you speak feel like an old tune sung to a different girl. You
said you are the happiest with me but there was the girl before
me. It was the best year of your life and happiest. If I can get
past this it will be a miracle. I love you. I
have never loved before you, these things im
saying to you are a first for me. Your words feel fake now, I
can't believe them. I need to ask questions but Im scared. But
this love hurts, its not kind, sweet and gentle love, it hurts
me. To know the first girl was your love and
you showed it, now onto the next one, me, I get all the hand me
down sayings that you originally felt for a different girl. How
does someone get by that. Your my first. Why do i
fell like I am always second best? You had talked
to her 4 months before I met you and you were in love, how can
something like that just stop so quickly! I feel like your
love isnt true now, you say you love me with all
your heart but how can I believe you? You said it
before, will i be left in the dust, you say no now but what
happened to her. Shes toast, in your past. I don't want to be the
past because you are my future. Im in love but it
hurts. How do i fight pain that i can't even tell you about? Im
scared it will end and I will be the second one you said those
things about. I feel like a test drive, just make it stop.
I want to believe you but how can i knowing i wasnt
the
FIRST! </3
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