Everyday it gets harder to fake that smile when I see you. It gets
harder to fall asleep and night and to get up in the morning.To
hear you say my name and know that I'm not yours anymore. To
look at your name in my phonebook and not see that silly little heart next
to it. To watch you give the love that I want, I need but pushed away. To have to
listen to those songs that bring back those memories. To think of
how you said that we would be together forever and realize that
can't happen now. To think about how things would be different if
I had said one thing instead of another. To realize that
everything that has happened was my fault and that I
can't be mad at anyone but myself because I'm the one who pushed
you away. To walk out of school without that kiss I'm so
used to getting.To know that things won't ever be the same
and that it's my fault. To realize that no matter how many times
I say "I'm
sorry" it can't and won't change anything. And
that I can't go back in time and
change all the mistakes I made or undo all the times I hurt
you or pushed you away when I shouldv"e pulled
you closed. To have to stop myself from telling you I love you because I
know your not mine anymore.
all mine </3
all mine </3
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