It's just a vent, fer reals, no worries. I'm just an idiot who's too emotional. I'm just me being me. Don't worry. It's fine.
And why do I bother? I'm not sure..it's like saying why did I bother even getting involved with Scott? I'm an idiot. I get myself into things that I can't even understand. -shrug-

God, why can't I ever do anything that DOESN'T hurt you? I don't want to hurt you, I'm terrified of putting you through that kind of pain but it seems like I doesn't matter what I do, I can't manage not to hurt you. I honoestly don't deserve, so why are you bothering to stay when I'm such a major -up?

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