i absolutly hate the guy that makes me want to cut my wrists

i absolutly hate the guy
that makes me want to cut my wrists
the one that makes me want to wake up in the hospital hearing "shes not gonna make it"
i hate the guy that makes my stomach turn
i hate the feeling
i hate the guy that shattered my heart
with a couple little words
i hate him
i really do
but at that same time
i would do anything to have him
and would never in a million years let him go
if i did
im in love with this guy
no matter what happens
or what he did or does to me<33*