If I get to
choose how I die,
I want
to drown.
The
beautiful waves would >crash< into my body,
in the most brilliant
blue I had ever
seen.
The
water would be peaceful,
I c o u l d h e a r n o t
h i n g .
The pain
would be great as water rushed into my lungs,
taking my last breath.
I would float
there f.o.r.e.v.e.r.,
no one having to bear the pain of losing me,
no one knowing where I went.
And in that
moment of passing,
and only in that
moment,
i
could finally be alive.