if you really knew me..
you would know that my parents fight
alot & i always get pulled into the middle of the fights, and
my
dad yells at me for EVERYTHING i do. he makes me feel like im not
good enough & it hurts to know that what ever i do im going
to get introuble. he always starts fights with my mom so they
fight EVERY NIGHT & i hear yelling & i hate
it.
if you really knew me..
you would know that i hate
being home. i would rather be anywhere but
here. you would
know that i hate my dad. & that me & my brother try
not to be home to see my dad or hear our parents
fight.
if you really knew me..
you would know that i cant really
trust anyone anymore. & im afraid to trust people. you would
know that i forgive people to easily & i really
shouldnt give people as many second chances
like i do. you
would know that i sometimes i let people walk over me cause i
dont want them getting mad at me.
if you really knew me..
you would know that i cut myself
once because i had so much pressure on me & my mind was going
crazy & i had no idea what to do or how to let my anger
out.
if you really knew me..
you would know
that i feel like im loosing my best
friend to our new friend & i really dont want to lose
her because she is my best friend & i can tell her
stuff i cant tell my other friends.
&
if you really knew me..
you would know
that i just want everything to be normal
again & i just want to stop crying myself to sleep all the
time.
my parents are either yelling at eachother, yelling at me, saying bad things about the other, or not talking at all. they divorced almost two years ago, and they still wont let go of their anger. thats why im a hippie (:
that you so much for writing this!
I thought I was the only one going through this though.