finding out things i dont wanna know. uncovering things better left
buried. things you were scared to find or prayed didnt happen.
feeling stupid because we didnt figure things our sooner. all the
what ifs, ands, whys running thru your head. blaming yourself for
things you had no control over and you know arent your fault. but
blaming yourself for them anyway. wanting to change the past to
have a different present and then wanting to change the present to
get the future you want. to sit in deep thought for hours wondering
what you coulda done to change everything.... but feeling oh so
helpless...