It's called
love;)116
I layed down on
his bed, crying, I stuffed my face into his blankets and his pillow
where we once layed naked together, where he once layed and cried
over me, where he took his last breath while holding my hand. I
started crying a lot, and then I whispered “I forgive you
Sam.” I put my head down and just let it all out. I cried and
cried and cried and I couldn’t stop, but I didn’t want
to. I wanted him to know that I really do love him, and I miss him
so much. Sandy must have called Justin because he walked in and
just comforted me. I sat up and he wiped the mascara from under my
eyes, and the tears of my face. He put my hair behind my ear and
then I leaned in and kissed him. He kissed me back. The kissing got
harder and turned into making out. Hard, frustrated, sad,
emotional, amazing make out. Then he pulled away and said
“let’s go home” So I grabbed Sam’s note and
followed Justin out. I walked back into Sam’s room, made his
bed, blew him a kiss, whispered “I love you Sam” and
turned off the light. I met Justin at the bottom of the stairs. I
hugged Sandy goodbye, and we walked out to Jeff who was waiting
outside in the car. I sat in the front next to Jeff and Justin was
in the back. We get home and we have to go out to eat for dinner,
but I told them I really didn’t feel like going, and they
completely understood and told Justin to stay and keep an eye on
me. They took Sarah and they will be home in a few hours. About 20
minutes after they left Justin came up and sat in my chair
that’s across the room from my bed, where I was
sitting.
Justin:
so..
Me:
so..?
Justin:
well this was fun..I’m going to go
dow-
Me:
stay. Please.
Justin got up but
when I asked him to stay, he came over to my bed and sat next to
me.