you know, its crazy to think
that i've spent six months of my life completely head over
heels for you. six months of tears, because you had a girlfriend.
six months of slim hope, that maybe you would like me back. six
months of worry, because i had to primp so much, trying to be good
enough for you. six months that i can never get back. i've
tried to get over you. that lasted all of 10 minutes. you know why?
because that's how long i could think about something other
than you. you know what that something was? me. i thought about me.
i thought about the A i got on my math quiz and i thought about the
three people that complimented me on my outfit that day. i thought
about how close i am with my sister and i thought about all of my
friends that love me so much. i thought about how my eyes are a
nice shade of green and i thought about how i got a lead in the
school play. i thought about me, and my life. and you know what?
for those 10 minutes, i was sincerely
happy.
i would say 'sorry, just
venting' but i'm not the slightest bit sorry. i need to get
this out and i don't care if you read it, but i just need to
have this off me. if you are reading this, you make me so happy.
thank you so much, i love you.