my story goes like this;
my name is Emily, i'm 14 years
young and i need to vent..
i'm in love.. with the boy who broke my heart <|3
i feel as if it's impossible to get over him, and i don't
know what to do anymore.
his name is Brandon. he's 16. and he now has a thing with a
18 year old.
her name is Jessica, and she's beautiful.
so here's my story..
it was the 4th of July, 2010. and i was in the car driving for 2
hours to get home.
on my way home i checked facebook on my phone, and randomly
Brandon liked my profile picture. it was random because we never
talked before. he lived in a different town about 30 minutes away
and we met at a fair about a month before this.
anyways, i decided to like his profile picture too.
and it basically started a liking war.
all day we liked each others pictures, and he even commented on
mine saying "cutie"
eventually that night he told me to text him and he gave me his
number!
so i texted him, and we wanted to meet up at the fireworks that
night but it didn't work out so we planned to hangout at the
movies 2 days later.
i didn't want to go alone, so i brought my best friend and
her boyfriend.
we all got along great, but me and brandon were just a little shy
with each other.
while we were in the movies {we saw grownups} his hand kept
getting closer and closer to mine so finally i just grabbed his
hand.
at the end when he had to leave, my best friend said as he got
up.."you aren't going to hug him goodbye?!" and so
he turned right around and i stood up so fast and BAM!
we kissed ;*
i've kissed other guys before, but this was something
special.
i knew right then and there that he was the one..
sounds crazy right?
i'm only 14, i know.. and before him, i never believed that
it was even possible to find "the one" till i go to
college, but he's just different.. or atleast i thought
he was.
well.. the night that we kissed was July 6th, 2010.
and he asked me out in person on July 28th, 2010. <3
we grew so close, and everything seemed so perfect in my
eyes.
one day, i was with him and my best friend and we decided that we
would go bridge jumping.
he had done it before, but me and my best friend
hadn't.
i was planning on jumping with my best friend, but i couldn't
do it.
i trust her, but i didn't believe that she would jump at the
same time.
so brandon held my hand and counted to 3.
1...2...3... and we jumped.
i trusted ever since that day, i trusted him with my life, and my
heart.
over the months, we made a lot of memories.. stuff that i could
never forget.
but one day everything was different..
that day was March 27th, 2011.
2 weeks ago.
he sent me a text {that i still haven't deleted} which
said..
"i feel like you're always going to be upset with me and
nothing is going to change. I don't see the point of being
together if you're just going to cry and be upset. I want
whats best for you and thats why i think that we should
probably take a break... i can't stand seeing you like i did
yesterday...
i'm sorry i love you."
yeah.. he said "break" and guess what day this all
happened on..
the day before it was supposed to be our 8 month!
...just 2 days later, i found out about Jessica.
They kissed the day after it was supposed to be our 8 month.
he doesn't even care. he has an older girl now.
she's 4 years older than me, i can promise you that she's
way prettier than i could ever be, and she can drive, and
she's going to college next year..
he doesn't even act like he cares about me at all..
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
i love him with all my heart..
there is no way she could ever love him more than i do.
and last night, i saw both of them.
they both work in the town that i live in, and they're across
the street from each other.
so i was with some friends and so we walked in to where brandon
works and bought a drink.
me and him were both starting at each other, and it was a little
awkward, but i just wanted to cry..
then after we walked to the movies where jessica worked..
that was the first time i saw her in person, and she's
gorgeous..
always smiling and she seems so nice /;
that night {last night} i deleted them both from facebook..
i don't really even know why..
and brandon texted me asking why i deleted him.
and i said idrk.
and he said alright idc
and i said yeah, i didn't think you would..
but then he requested me again. and i accepted.
i don't get it!
he said he didn't care, but he added me again..
I JUST WANT HIM BACK..
it's way to hard being "just friends" with someone
who you love so much
and someone who you've gone through so much with.
i miss him.
i miss us.
i miss his smile, his eyes, his laugh, his touch, his kisses, his
hugs, his comforting words, his family, his friends..
i miss our i love you wars, our tickle wars, our little fights
that always ended with apologies, our singing, our nights of
jealous, our movie nights..
i miss when we played with his guinea pigs, when he cheated
at video games, when we went places together, when we acted so
dumb around each other, when we told each other absolutely
everything, when he protected me, when he promised he'd never
hurt me, when he promised we'd be together forever, when we
decided that we wanted to get married and have 3 kids and he
would build our home and it was going to be beautiful, when we
played with his little sister, when he threw me in the snow but
helped me up, when we did eskimo kisses, when we went for walks
in the dark, when he'd scare me but then hold me till i was
better, when we texted every morning telling each other that we
loved the other...
i miss everything
and i really need help..
PLEASE?!
PLEASE HELP
ME!
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not my format.
okay so right now, his life is about having fun and hooking up with girls, its okay...
clearly you love the guy and 8 months with him was a lot to you, but you have to realise that hes not just with this girl because you think shes hotter than you, this is not true... hes with her because he likes her... its how life works, what you have to do is just not neccessarily move on but go out, have fun, meet other boys, kiss a few guys (dont be a :)) but go out and be you, youre in the prime of your life, dont worry, if you two are meant to have a relationship together, then it will happen :)
my other tip could be that you shouldnt try to hard for a guy, because a lot of guys like being chased by girls who dont act like they want them,,, try be friends, have deep meaningful convos at night and just try be on that level, then work your way back into his heart...
trust, its not easy and its not quick, but its always worth the wait :)
good luck and im here if you need to talk.